So, I've been off of Facebook since August 1st. For the first 8 or 9 days, there was no contact. But, I have several pages that I manage, so I signed back in only to receive emails.
I can honestly say, I've never really been happier. Talking more with friends by phone and text is much nicer. It is so nice not being assaulted by negativity, political rants, boasters, whiners, gripers, complainers the list goes on and on.
Well, time to get back to work. Hope all 5 of you out there reading my blog are having a great day. :)
Peace Out
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Friday, August 08, 2014
Oh Ireland.
I've been growing restless lately. A sense of lonliness creeps in almost daily. I physically long to be standing in Dublin, listening to the Irish accents and drinking a thick Guinness. Seeing photos of Ireland, or even hearing an Irish name sets me off.
I'm planning a trip for Christmas and New Year's. Not sure if it will happen yet, but damn I'm trying. It's been 5 long months since I've walked the cobblestone streets. It is a homesick, gut wrenching desire to just exist. In Ireland, I just am. It doesn't matter what I've done, the mistakes I've made. In Ireland, I'm whole.
Peace Out.
I'm planning a trip for Christmas and New Year's. Not sure if it will happen yet, but damn I'm trying. It's been 5 long months since I've walked the cobblestone streets. It is a homesick, gut wrenching desire to just exist. In Ireland, I just am. It doesn't matter what I've done, the mistakes I've made. In Ireland, I'm whole.
Peace Out.
Thursday, August 07, 2014
One week of no FB
One whole week free of FB. It feels weird not knowing every little detail of some people's lives. :)
I feel a little lighter, a little less guilty. Many things are out of our control. When I see chaos there is an immediate feeling of wanting to help. Most instances, there is nothing I can do. Then the helpless feeling kicks in. Then I go on about my life and things are good, then I see how bad some people have it, and then the guilt kicks in. How can you live your life filled with joy and laughter, when people are suffering all around you?
The above question haunts me almost daily.
By deactivating FB, I was able to eliminate about 98% of the negativity I see every day. It's quite amazing actually. Yes, there are some things I miss. I do have some extremely funny friends, and their page was my comic relief. I miss reading my Ireland friend's posts and seeing their pictures. And there are just a few friends, who always were positive, even in the face of bad stuff. Those things I miss. What I don't miss are the whiners, complainers, the over-sharers, the boastful, the idiots (yes, I know a few), the woe is me type, the crazy zealots (POLITICAL & RELIGIOUS), I could go on, but then that would make me the whiner. What I'm trying to say, is growing older for me, brings along a peacefulness about growing up. I'm realizing more of what makes me happy and unhappy. My want and need for happiness is not being selfish, it is taking care of myself.
Peace Out!
P.S. Without linking my blog to FB, my last post has received 9 views in 6 days. Out of sight, out of mind.
I feel a little lighter, a little less guilty. Many things are out of our control. When I see chaos there is an immediate feeling of wanting to help. Most instances, there is nothing I can do. Then the helpless feeling kicks in. Then I go on about my life and things are good, then I see how bad some people have it, and then the guilt kicks in. How can you live your life filled with joy and laughter, when people are suffering all around you?
The above question haunts me almost daily.
By deactivating FB, I was able to eliminate about 98% of the negativity I see every day. It's quite amazing actually. Yes, there are some things I miss. I do have some extremely funny friends, and their page was my comic relief. I miss reading my Ireland friend's posts and seeing their pictures. And there are just a few friends, who always were positive, even in the face of bad stuff. Those things I miss. What I don't miss are the whiners, complainers, the over-sharers, the boastful, the idiots (yes, I know a few), the woe is me type, the crazy zealots (POLITICAL & RELIGIOUS), I could go on, but then that would make me the whiner. What I'm trying to say, is growing older for me, brings along a peacefulness about growing up. I'm realizing more of what makes me happy and unhappy. My want and need for happiness is not being selfish, it is taking care of myself.
Peace Out!
P.S. Without linking my blog to FB, my last post has received 9 views in 6 days. Out of sight, out of mind.
Friday, August 01, 2014
4 weeks of freedom
Today marks the 28th day of being nicotine free. I'm so proud of myself. Not saying I won't fall off the wagon from time to time, but my aim is to stay substance free. I quit smoking April 1st, 2011 and then occasionally smoked while drinking. Which really means, when in Ireland.....
It was the Snus, or pouched tobacco, that was starting to become a problem. It was pretty much invisible to everyone, so I did it every where. That kind of dependence is maddening.
Speaking of Dependence, I deactivated FB last night. Trying to connect more with the life I am living. Checking in, uploading pictures, liking, so many things that take away from the present here and now. I'm trying to find a better balance in my life. We'll see how it goes. I'll keep the blog going though. I love to write and it helps to see my feelings on the paper. I can save and edit and really put out there what I'm going through.
It's funny though, not many people will see this because I won't be linking to FB. It's a reminder that we are not as important as we might think.
Peace Out!
It was the Snus, or pouched tobacco, that was starting to become a problem. It was pretty much invisible to everyone, so I did it every where. That kind of dependence is maddening.
Speaking of Dependence, I deactivated FB last night. Trying to connect more with the life I am living. Checking in, uploading pictures, liking, so many things that take away from the present here and now. I'm trying to find a better balance in my life. We'll see how it goes. I'll keep the blog going though. I love to write and it helps to see my feelings on the paper. I can save and edit and really put out there what I'm going through.
It's funny though, not many people will see this because I won't be linking to FB. It's a reminder that we are not as important as we might think.
Peace Out!
Monday, July 28, 2014
6 months out
Today marks the countdown... I'm six months away... how did it happen? THE BIG 40
Holy Crap!
%^$(^%87
SHIT!
NoooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
WAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ok, you get the point.
Saturday, I competed in my first Crossfit Comp, and got my ass handed to me. It was a lot of fun, but it definitely showed me areas I can improve. Endurance!!!! I'm very excited to start training a little harder. I've had to take it a little slow because of the shoulder surgery, but it's time to turn up the intensity a bit. Sunday I worked out a whole new meal plan and started this morning. We will see how my body responds in a few weeks.
Only a few days until I silence FB for a month. That will definitely give me more time to focus on things. There are little things around the house I want to fix, but mainly I want to train. I'm happiest when I'm sweating in the gym, pushing my body to its limit. The closer I get to 40, the more I realize what truly makes me happy. Being in the gym all sweaty and exhausted. Attempting lifts and learning how to use my body more efficiently. Learning what foods fuel me and make me a leaner and stronger athlete. I abused my body for years with alcohol, bad food, drugs and not enough sleep. It's a wonder I'm able to do anything at all.
So anyway, stay tuned. There are changes on the horizon. I'm very excited about where I am emotionally. Still have some very hard days and that will probably never change. Just the other day walking Sir William, a song started and I was literally bawling my eyes out, then the moment passed and I was fine. Physically I'm getting stronger every day. I can now do push-ups without the bands to assist me. Next big goal, strict pull up. I want that so bad, and a one handed hand stand, oh and a back hand spring... the list is really endless.
I want to do all the things..... :)
Holy Crap!
%^$(^%87
SHIT!
NoooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
WAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ok, you get the point.
Saturday, I competed in my first Crossfit Comp, and got my ass handed to me. It was a lot of fun, but it definitely showed me areas I can improve. Endurance!!!! I'm very excited to start training a little harder. I've had to take it a little slow because of the shoulder surgery, but it's time to turn up the intensity a bit. Sunday I worked out a whole new meal plan and started this morning. We will see how my body responds in a few weeks.
Only a few days until I silence FB for a month. That will definitely give me more time to focus on things. There are little things around the house I want to fix, but mainly I want to train. I'm happiest when I'm sweating in the gym, pushing my body to its limit. The closer I get to 40, the more I realize what truly makes me happy. Being in the gym all sweaty and exhausted. Attempting lifts and learning how to use my body more efficiently. Learning what foods fuel me and make me a leaner and stronger athlete. I abused my body for years with alcohol, bad food, drugs and not enough sleep. It's a wonder I'm able to do anything at all.
So anyway, stay tuned. There are changes on the horizon. I'm very excited about where I am emotionally. Still have some very hard days and that will probably never change. Just the other day walking Sir William, a song started and I was literally bawling my eyes out, then the moment passed and I was fine. Physically I'm getting stronger every day. I can now do push-ups without the bands to assist me. Next big goal, strict pull up. I want that so bad, and a one handed hand stand, oh and a back hand spring... the list is really endless.
I want to do all the things..... :)
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Ready for a break!
I'm so ready for a much needed break. Starting Friday August 1, 2014 NO FACEBOOK for a month. I'm probably going to skip watching any news programs as well. It seems like everyday, every minute, every second is marred by tragedy. Guess what people, it's always been that way. Since the beginning of time, SHIT happens. But in today's time, everything is BREAKING NEWS. Watching everyone post depressing and horrifying news links has started taking it's toll.
"Like this picture to show you don't support spousal abuse" "Look at this dog, his fur gone because his owners tied him to a tree and didn't feed him for weeks".... I could go on, but I know you have all seen it.
I don't know about you guys, but life for me is pretty ok. I mean, things aren't perfect, but I've been blessed beyond measure. If I sat and focused on all the shit, life would become horrible really quickly. I've been learning lately, that I can't live my life for anyone other than myself. The way I react or don't react, is totally up to me. I'll be honest, I don't like conflict, but for years instigated my fair share of turmoil. Now, I would rather avoid the things that make me sad or unhappy.
I'm tired of waking up and the first thing I hear is bad news. Since I know this, I will just quit listening to the news. Unless of course it's from Gary Gnu
Sunday, July 06, 2014
New Direction
Hello all. It has been a couple of months since my last post. I've been busy in the gym, at the office and not much else.
More frequent posts are on the horizon, as I venture into a new phase of life. My shoulder is healing nicely and I'm in the gym more and more. I've signed up for my first competition in 3 weeks. I'm really excited to do something competitive again.
I'll post recipes, exercise tips, struggles, personal records... whatever happens for the week, I'll fill you in. Everyday can't be a PR kind of day. I want to encourage people to never give up. You are never too old, too young, too anything. Do things that make you happy, find people who encourage that and live your life.
Peace out for now......
More frequent posts are on the horizon, as I venture into a new phase of life. My shoulder is healing nicely and I'm in the gym more and more. I've signed up for my first competition in 3 weeks. I'm really excited to do something competitive again.
I'll post recipes, exercise tips, struggles, personal records... whatever happens for the week, I'll fill you in. Everyday can't be a PR kind of day. I want to encourage people to never give up. You are never too old, too young, too anything. Do things that make you happy, find people who encourage that and live your life.
Peace out for now......
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