So this year, it seems that I pulled off the best April Fool's Day hoax of all. I actually like the fact, that most of you know me well enough, that you would think it was actually true.
No, I didn't mean anyone special in Ireland. They were all special, but no one special special. Did I want to? Well of course, who wouldn't want to be swept of their feet. Would I move to Ireland? In a second, a nano second. My mother is not thrilled with that idea. As a matter of fact, when I text her from Ireland, she said " you can leave Lawton when I die". Nope, no guilt trip there. I know she loves me, and just wants me close, but I don't think she sees the light inside me dying. No, I won't die here in Lawton anytime soon, but there are days it feels like it. I have so much that is good. Stable job, my family, a home. But that's it. Nothing else happening.
I'm thankful, I'm blessed, but I'm also bored to tears. Each day, same thing, work, work out, come home eat and sleep. Repeat! Some days I mix it up, by drinking too much and showing my ass, but those days are too few. That is not the part that I hate. I'm tired of being alone. I want to be in a relationship, not just to be in one, but in one with someone special. It would be nice to find the right guy. I don't just want any guy. They have to be funny, cute but most of all, different. No country accent dammit! :)
I thank everyone for all the laughs today at my status. My mother cried and was sick to her stomach, seeing me fly across the pond. I wish it were true folks, but alas, my fairy tale life continues. One day though, there will be a happy ending. Or, it could just be an ending. Either way, it's my journey, and I'm thankful to be taking it.
