I've been growing restless lately. A sense of lonliness creeps in almost daily. I physically long to be standing in Dublin, listening to the Irish accents and drinking a thick Guinness. Seeing photos of Ireland, or even hearing an Irish name sets me off.
I'm planning a trip for Christmas and New Year's. Not sure if it will happen yet, but damn I'm trying. It's been 5 long months since I've walked the cobblestone streets. It is a homesick, gut wrenching desire to just exist. In Ireland, I just am. It doesn't matter what I've done, the mistakes I've made. In Ireland, I'm whole.
Peace Out.
Friday, August 08, 2014
Thursday, August 07, 2014
One week of no FB
One whole week free of FB. It feels weird not knowing every little detail of some people's lives. :)
I feel a little lighter, a little less guilty. Many things are out of our control. When I see chaos there is an immediate feeling of wanting to help. Most instances, there is nothing I can do. Then the helpless feeling kicks in. Then I go on about my life and things are good, then I see how bad some people have it, and then the guilt kicks in. How can you live your life filled with joy and laughter, when people are suffering all around you?
The above question haunts me almost daily.
By deactivating FB, I was able to eliminate about 98% of the negativity I see every day. It's quite amazing actually. Yes, there are some things I miss. I do have some extremely funny friends, and their page was my comic relief. I miss reading my Ireland friend's posts and seeing their pictures. And there are just a few friends, who always were positive, even in the face of bad stuff. Those things I miss. What I don't miss are the whiners, complainers, the over-sharers, the boastful, the idiots (yes, I know a few), the woe is me type, the crazy zealots (POLITICAL & RELIGIOUS), I could go on, but then that would make me the whiner. What I'm trying to say, is growing older for me, brings along a peacefulness about growing up. I'm realizing more of what makes me happy and unhappy. My want and need for happiness is not being selfish, it is taking care of myself.
Peace Out!
P.S. Without linking my blog to FB, my last post has received 9 views in 6 days. Out of sight, out of mind.
I feel a little lighter, a little less guilty. Many things are out of our control. When I see chaos there is an immediate feeling of wanting to help. Most instances, there is nothing I can do. Then the helpless feeling kicks in. Then I go on about my life and things are good, then I see how bad some people have it, and then the guilt kicks in. How can you live your life filled with joy and laughter, when people are suffering all around you?
The above question haunts me almost daily.
By deactivating FB, I was able to eliminate about 98% of the negativity I see every day. It's quite amazing actually. Yes, there are some things I miss. I do have some extremely funny friends, and their page was my comic relief. I miss reading my Ireland friend's posts and seeing their pictures. And there are just a few friends, who always were positive, even in the face of bad stuff. Those things I miss. What I don't miss are the whiners, complainers, the over-sharers, the boastful, the idiots (yes, I know a few), the woe is me type, the crazy zealots (POLITICAL & RELIGIOUS), I could go on, but then that would make me the whiner. What I'm trying to say, is growing older for me, brings along a peacefulness about growing up. I'm realizing more of what makes me happy and unhappy. My want and need for happiness is not being selfish, it is taking care of myself.
Peace Out!
P.S. Without linking my blog to FB, my last post has received 9 views in 6 days. Out of sight, out of mind.
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