New baby daddy :)

I'm really excited about the new possibility.  The first donor I picked is very smart and  healthy, but he was not my first pick.  One of my first picks was unavailable when I needed to get the sperm, now he is.  Just bought and my babies are on their way, to my doctor.  They will arrive in time for my next insemination.  He is also smart.  He has his Master's in Music.  He is tall with wavy brown hair and hazel eyes.  He is an Artist and he loves science.  A good mix!

I'm coming to the end of this down time.  So ready to be on the 2ww ( two week wait).  As slow as time goes during this time, at least I know there is a chance to be pregnant.  Right now, I'm just full of estrogen.  Which is basically like being full of piss and vinegar.  :)

Thank you everyone for the kind words.  I read them, and they do lift me up so much.  I might get down from time to time, and wallow in self pity, but knowing that I have friends, helps.  Makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world.  Until of course, my emotions go all crazy, and I think to myself, how alone I am.  :)  See, piss and vinegar!  Told you!! laughing

Estrogen overload!

Day 3 of Clomid, and I feel all these emotions. It's been different than last time. I've pretty much avoided people. Went out last night for a few drinks and had some laughs, so it hasn't all been bad. But, I definitely have tried to keep to myself and not think about anything. The crying comes so quick and unexpected. It takes me by surprise. I'm not a big crier, so it can be uncomfortable. I'm trying to stay present and deal with it. It's during these times, that I feel so alone. This process is very isolating. It's about the only thing on my mind, and that limits the interaction I want to have with people. I don't want to be a burden with my fears. I feel like an outsider to life right now. I am a prisoner to this process, and in a way my life is on hold, as I pursue having my own slice of the future.