3 weeks till Thanksgiving

3 weeks until Thanksgiving.  For as slow as this year has seemed to go, now that I'm 3 weeks away from starting the IVF process, it's going pretty fast.  I'm really thankful that the waiting is almost over, and I can move forward.

You know, I always thought life was just going to fall into place.  I never really put much thought into preparation, or hardships.  There are things going on in my family, that are making my heart hurt.  As you are growing up, you just always assume that your family will be there and have your back no matter what.  That apparently is not the case.  The past 3 months, have opened my eyes to selfishness and bitterness.  I've cried and lost sleep over what is going on, but no more.  Last night was the final straw in my eyes.  It's not so much me anymore, but watching my mom and step-dad have their hearts broken is heart wrenching.  Yes, my mom is slightly crazy, but in the best of ways.  Her heart is as big as they come.  There is nothing she wouldn't do for me or my brother.  There is nothing her and Joe haven't already done.  If there is one thing I've learned in this life, is it goes fast.  Way too fast.  You end up with regrets, and you may not ever get the chance to make things right.  I'm moving on, moving past and letting go.  There are people, who want to be a part of my life.  You can't choose family, but you sure can choose great people to share your life with.  They become family.  Blood may be thicker than water, but someone who chooses to swim upstream for you, they are what I want to be surrounded by.

Come on November!

I'm about to get in the kitchen, and finish decorating the last of the Breast Cancer Awareness cookies.  When I'm finished, they will have consumed over 100 dozen cookies this month.  And I was even out of town for one week.  That's 100 dozen in 3 weeks.  I love making them, but I'm also ready for a break!!

I started a juicing and raw vegetable fast on Wednesday, and let me tell you.  I'm hungry! :)  Not that bad, but baking makes me crave bad food.  I feel energized and a little more calm.  Eating healthy, and knowing  you are giving your body what it needs, makes you you feel better each day.  I'm not saying, that I'm not looking forward to Wednesday, when I start introducing foods back into my diet.  Yesterday was a day that I cheated, but there is a good reason.  I did a CrossFit workout, that had me completely depleted.  I'll try to explain what it was, without confusing you.  We were in teams of 4, consisting of two guys and two girls.  To start, myself and other guy started with 20 front squats, holding a bar.  I think mine weighed 25lbs.

Right into 20 jumping lunges

Followed by 20 push presses

And then 20 sit-ups

Now you would think we would be done.  NOPE  While we catch our breath, our partners are doing 20 ground to overhead with weights each.

After they finish, we start back with the front squats, and go through the whole cycle.  We did it a total of 5 times, which equaled 100 of each exercise.  When we finished, we switched places and we finished the workout, by doing the ground to overhead with plates.  Let's just say, the 4 stairs to get out of the building, were a feat themselves.

It was a tough workout, but I'm hooked.  It's a mental game as well.  Pushing yourself past your comfort zone.  I'm going to do this for the next 3 weeks in preparation for the IVF, which will hopefully start on the 24th of November.

I challenge each of you, to try something new.  It is such a wonderful feeling to get out there, and experience something completely different.